我们去哪里呀

by 小葵 on 2013/12/13

 

夏有凉风冬有雪。一不留神,凛冬已至,winter is coming…

七年前的十一月,我与一名早期文艺患者——文。还一起在文轩书城买正版的周杰伦的CD,十一月的肖邦。

 

说起猪头文就想起很多校园生活,那些关键字或标签有:

互传小纸条,早期互联网,单机游戏,英语,流行歌曲,文字,科幻,羽毛球,下雪的操场,还有暗恋。

他在课后给我演示虫洞原理,计算机,还有F1。给我飚美式英语。给我用行书抄写周杰伦的歌词。

05年圣诞节的时候,他给我发了一封带附件的邮件,我运行了那个snow.exe。看着满屏幕下着雪花,我有感动到死好么。

一起吃章鱼小丸子。给我念他写的小科幻,小情诗。我还记得他的小说第一句是:最近孕吐的厉害…

我帮他追冷若清秋的学霸妹子,那天的宿舍外面下着瓢泼大雨。他在楼下撑着伞,我也撑着伞送妹子下楼,我一脚踩到水坑…

留下她们的我落荒而逃…

 

最初的男闺蜜。高三我送了他一本我喜欢的书《追风筝的人》、在书里我藏着写了好多的话。

我也曾许诺每年圣诞节送他一片贺卡。只是毕业后再也没有了后文。

而那句,为你,千千万万遍。

还在岁月里回响

 

扯远了,从十一月就引发了这么多。好久没写,思维越来越散。

保留了一个写文章就要喝点水听点歌的习惯,打开豆瓣华语电台,随手泡了一杯可能是2013年最后一杯咖啡。

昨天吧,应该是昨天深夜,我做了一个异常清晰的梦,我梦见许久没有消息的一位朋友,突然连更了三四条微博。

我甚至都能记得他每条微博的图片和文字内容。

他拍了一个用复古罐子装着的碗莲,嫩绿的色彩。还有他竟然结婚了,还有了小孩。

我当时看了心情有点败坏。我都在梦里构思好了自己也发一条微博。

大意是消失了一两年的朋友,居然瞒着自己结婚生子,其他人都还好,而那个人居然是C。

你现在可能在地球某个地方旅行吧。干巴得!50岁后环游世界,吃遍五星米其林和路边摊!

只是我再也听不到那样温暖的男声,再也造不出那样的梦。

 

而对于L,年少轻狂。不知道说什么好。

最后对你一无所知,圣马可广场的你的样子好忧郁。

也不会忘记,生命曾交汇的美好时光。

不打扰,是我最后的温柔。

 

身边从小到大的两个闺蜜都结婚了

高中同学好友些好多都婚了孕了生了

只有鹤立鸡群的何奥迪还依旧单身,他这是要修炼成钻石何老五的节奏

而大汉?健身帝,飞行员,还在通往男神行列的路上,孤独地越走越远

 

刘小麻,说他又孤独了一年,我们的初中班主任嫁女了,他说物是人非

奇葩小麻从没恋爱过,可悲的小麻子

我总是恶言相向的极力嘲讽他

他也云淡风轻。说洗脚城的双胞胎妹子,双飞也就那么回事

前几月他微信给我发了个凹凸有致的学生妹子图,娇羞的三点式

我才发现,也许我从来没真正了解过小麻

我一直把他当成十年前那个被我打的嘻哈小正太

 

我都好久不怀恋她们和他们了。他们和她们也不怀恋我吧。

十分难形容我最近几月过的生活,如果硬要比喻。就像我手边这杯不伦不类的咖啡。

口感可以自我调制:咖啡颗粒,咖啡伴侣和白砂糖。

可以甜,可以涩,可以苦,可以淡。

咖啡是不变的,变的是咖啡因含量和喝咖啡的心情。

好比生活,本身是恒定的,注定好的,可以没有什么大风大浪,很多东西可以控的

而现实是情绪越来越难控。

 

宅了,看书少了,看的垃圾电影多了,被理解的少了,更暴戾了。

便觉得今年的冬天没有去年那么暖和了

消失的久了,居然也有了我的八卦在坊间流传了。说我结婚了,怀孕了。

这。。。。我未婚未孕哈,依旧的少女心。

只是记忆变差了,忘记了要为自己带盐,为自己而活。。

 

现在更多的是选择感情,婚姻,而工作只是辅。

我跑不好泡泡卡丁车,我也断定我开不好小车。

于是最近新添了一辆低碳的坐骑,踩15分钟自行车上下班,回家吃饭玩手机,看我的绿萝,多肉,和小金鱼。

我会收敛我的孩子气,会依旧热爱生活,会做饭会洗衣,会听着小曲儿打扫房间。

 

2003年到2013年,十年!太多太多!

生命中路过的亲们,我爱你们

 

下一个十年,

我准备好了吗?

 

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