吃饱了,不开心

by 小葵 on 2012/09/7

 

现在很喜欢WP的后台编辑插件,全屏界面清爽,简洁,也是我博客更新较以往频繁的原因之一。

 

今天9月7号,手机晒满了各银行商场的系统生日祝福,其实今天不是我生日。

无它,9月7号快乐,活着的每一天快乐,不开学快乐,周末快乐。

 

下午烦躁到不行,于是睡觉,一直噩梦。白天不敢面对一直逃避的事情,在梦里一直演化,真实又可怕。

我越是恐惧什么,梦里的剧情就发生什么。之后想发微博说,白天琐事烦心,就连梦里都不让我安宁。

 

唯一温暖的情节是,梦里出现了我想要的一个场景。

凯依旧很瘦,一身背靠背的衣服。笑着一口白牙,开着车,向我挥手,说姐,过来,然后我们准备去钓鱼。

应该是我最近看到凯经常更新空间,发他去夜钓的照片引发的。

他爱钓鱼,他也知道我爱钓鱼,爱野炊。怀念小时候的姐弟打架打牌游玩的时光。

 

我觉得我是个神经。小时候和哥哥去钓鱼,和爸爸去钓鱼,和弟弟去钓鱼。至此以后上学直至工作的时期,经常梦见在河边垂钓的场景。

 

我还记得那年,凯喜欢通宵通宵玩网游,每天早上我叫他起床吃早饭是极其困难的一件事。

记得凯有一次说,姐,以后你挣钱了,我给你打工,给你当司机。我浮夸的说姐姐我中了头彩,第一个就给你小子买俩法拉利。

那时候笑的好开心。

 

现在总想着,如果在家里,我想去哪,凯就是司机,姐永远是副驾驶,我会预想到他会把车开很野,经常有罚单。

半夜晚要出去喝夜啤酒,然后胡吃海喝,吹着嘉陵江边的风。

夏天就去游泳,垂钓。我包的抄手,又是煮一大锅,凯的最爱,我们都猛吃一大碗,然后一家人打开PPS看搞笑的片子。

我总会奉劝他,少抽烟少喝酒少打游戏。

 

我想过那样的生活,在家里,不用挤公车,没有快节奏的上下班人流,没有各种繁杂的信息。只有家人和偶尔吹到的江风。

 

这是一种愿景,和期许。没有人愿意离开家人那么远。没有人愿意看到家人遭受疾病和意外却无能为力。

 

越来越不能节制食欲,吃到撑为止,然后去称体重,说要克制了要克制了。

 

9月2号到9月6号。

这只是一个开始

仅仅是一个开始

 

我心底最想要的,在梦里。

我心底最害怕的,在梦里。

 

从前想要的,现在不想要了。

现在想要的,也会慢慢实现的。需要坚持和耐心。

现实里,让我继续做一个万能的不靠谱的小葵

这样也很好,不是吗?

 

 

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